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Name: Paul/Phil
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Xenia
Birthday: 8/5/1981
Gender: Male
Interests: I do theatre, thats about the sum of my interests in the true world. I also read Books of Fantasy and Fiction
Expertise: I run Lights for theatre
Occupation: Other
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message me
AIM:  Auroknight
Member Since:
9/18/2005
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| Well To the dissappointment of some and the elation of others I ahve
oficaly made my decision concerning my fall plans. I will not be going
to Houston, I will not be going to Ohio, and sad to say because it
looked nice, I will not be goign to Utah. I am moving to Tennessee, to
the Home of the TItans(sad to say thier draft hasn't be going to well.)
That right I'm going to memphis to get an MFA in lighting Design. That
will be the third degree. I wouldn't think this would be such a big
deal except for the fact that I am not nearly at the point I need to be
to do anything I want to do. You can increase instinctual knowledge
only so far, and I'm right there. I've done gona about this the long
way around didn't I. | | |
| Not really, I am again assuallted with things to do next year. And
its going to put a block between my friends and I because I know that
the decision i make will be to help me in my carreer and will be the
"Friendly" thing to do.
I ahve to ame a decision between
memphis and houston. For those of you that know it all makes sense for
those that don't here is the background. I decided after a couple of
monthes of working my oversized backside off that I wanted to attempt
to Get an MFA in Lighting Design. Well I did all the aplpications spent
all of teh money and Now I have offers from Houston and Memphis.
Seems like it would be an easy decision. Its not, I have no time for
real research and I alreayd feel my instincts pulling me in a direction
but i like to take other peoples thoughts. So if you ahve a thought
PLease tell me... You ahve less than a night. My decision will be made
tomorrow afternoon with or without anyone.
Oh yeah, Florida is way to hot, way to sunny, and way to Old. Give me a nice cold college town any day of the week.
Oh and for linza Happy Birthday
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| Alright, I've decided to say this once and hopefully only once. It has
come down to the time I can barely stand to here people compliment me
anymore. I am jsyut doing my job, I am working no harder than anyone
else and I should be thanked less than anyone else because I am
naturally suited to do these things. If you want something pushed
pulled broken or destroyed you go to teh Big ogre-bear of a man, you
don't look at the thin guy or the Small lady. But when they do just
the same work as me, then you should be thanking them and not me. It
pisses me off to be given accolades that I niether desrve or want. Let
me work and I'll get the job done.
As a second note, there is a vast majority of people that like to think
that I am a nice person. I try to think I am a semi-good person. I do
not kill or steal, but I am not a nice person. I am very cold, angry,
and dispassionate towards others. I find that I have two mistresses
that will always be in my life. Theatre and Books and those take up a
huge amount of time. Human problems are very bothersome when pushing
toward a tech deadline. Sometimes I want others to know that I am not
what people want to see. I learned long ago how to fit in, being on
outcast can do that to you. I've thrown enough wieght around pushing
people both larger and smaller than me, to get fear if not respect
through fear.
Just some throughts and growls from an old bear that sometimes justs wanna be left alone to read in the easy chair.
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| So my truck is starting to show signs of wear after 3 years. one of the HEadlights whent out on WEdnesday, AND
I get stopped for it. The Police was nice enough I get off wiht a warning. Which is good and fine cause I need to get an oil chancge and a new inspection sticker. Well tonight after another long day, I'm on the road again and AGAIN i get stopped, I don't een have a chanc eto get my registration out of my Glove box becauase stragnely enough its the same guy.
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| WEll then a NEw Blog, I keep putting these thigns aside because I always don't feel like I have enough time.
First the Good Day. Only 3 days and 2 nights till Anita. THough I
think it will be more of me being the Doctor and Pharmacist. LEt shope
she doesn't inffect me with whatever sickness she has, I have already
survived my roomates. I woudl hope that she wouldn't take me down.
I also arrived back from Cinncinatti, It was so nice and Cold there.
YOu never respect a good winter untill you don't get one. I hate this
hot winter thing, it is so disasturous.
Now the Bad, Good Crap, How many delays can go on one plane ticket.
The first way I spent more time waiting fro a plane to arrive at the
airport than I did on a plane, and I flew over 1500 miles. Talk about
one pissed off Bear, I coudl kill when things like that show up.
ANd Eric, one of my closet and oldest friends in Sigma PI has posted a
bunch of Pictures from his years at TEch. Talka bout having memories
and names. Talk about going soft. I kinda pushed away all those
memories cause it helps me nto be sad about not seeing those poeple,
But you know what, I realyl miss everyone. They are my freinds and
family and have been so much a part of my life. HOw can you not want
to be around them, and how can you not want to be at those parties. I
love those things, the one night in mahy a day that I can relax. Ah
those were the days.
I hate CHildren.
And now the maybe good maybe bad part. I just go back from an
Interview at the University of Cincy. I ca't beleive that size of that
place. There were thigns there I have never seen before, Things i've
never even looked up, if you can beleive that. It Was a huge highlight
reel. Everyone was exteremly nice, i even got to tell jokes with the
current Grad students. It had a wonderful family atmosphere. You
can't belevie how nice that was for me to feel that desire to be around
each other that was there. Now I have to wait.
I also get to do an interview with the Designer at teh UNiversity of
Memphis tomorrow. ANd I can't say anything bad about Tennessee. TI
close enoughto my Brothers and Freinds that I could make a good life
there. We'll see how that works out.
And Now I am partial control to take peoples head in teh Empire of Linza. Thank you Supreme Imperitrix. The beheadings will start immediatly. Fear my axe fools. Wuh-h-ha
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